#idfk. it should not be this difficult for me yet here we are

[mosspapi]

Man. I keep putting off doing chores because the process in this new room is giving me massive anxiety, but that means I have even more to do at once. Which is even more anxiety-inducing. I am building the worlds biggest snowball here aren't I

[unma]

I'm not going to be able to write my typical long rambles for a bit (need to catch up on important work), but here's a short list of things I wanna talk about with the latest canto.

Spoilers, of course.

The entire Canto taking place after the ending of Don Quixote (the first Don, I will not call him the Actual Don because our Don is as much Don Quixote as he is) is not something I expected, but makes so much sense and made for a wonderful story. There are themes of identity, struggling to live under a broken system and GOD THE FAMILIAL TIES. THE FIGHT AGAINST THE TWO MIDBOSSES + THE PRIEST HAD SUCH MAGNIFICENT STORY BUILD UP. AND THE PRIEST'S ENTIRE MOVESET. UGGGH I WANNA TALK ABOTU IT

Hey. Outis. What did you mean by that. We all know what I'm talking about, right? This is the first time I know of that she's actually given even a smidge of info about herself somewhat directly. Somewhat. Everything else is just in how she knows things and acts. Here she is asking a very specific question and god, I need to know more about her now.

Good job Sinclair. And everyone else. But good job Sinclair.

Vergilius with Sanson's face/mask is cursed.

I continue to feel so so bad for the Bloodfiends. They did the best they could in a world that gave them only two horrible options. I couldn't help but compare La Manchaland to the Tokyo Ghoul:RE ending, because the hemobars reminded me of the artificial meat, except in TG:RE it worked and here, well. We saw how that went. I think it's a great idea to start with the after of their solution; this isn't a situation with a possible solution, they tried that and failed. Who knows if there is one that works? Does it matter now that they're all dead?

I'm going to be very weird about Camille once this is all said and done, but I do want to note that the pretty boy being turned into a flower and having a name very clearly gotten from Carmilla the flower (and maybe the book? Haven't read it yet so idk if he's taken from there) is very cheeky. I still wish I could've besting him up myself. This isn't me critiquing the writing, this is me being weird.

The QTE in the ending cutscene of the boss fight was cool and really added to the feeling of fighting against and overcoming a clearly superior foe.

I wanna hug Don Quixote the First. He's such a ray of sunshine and deserved better. Even if he was somewhat delusional, at least he genuinely cared for his family.

What happened to Hong Lu's sister? Did she just vanish? I didn't notice until later on, so I'll probably need to go back and check myself.

Bari is the Librarian of Death (edit: Nameless Bookhunter, thanks for the correction AE)? Idfk and idc for now. If Bari ends up showing up again or a moot of mine decides they wanna talk about it, maybe I'll look into it.

The familial themes here are most certainly also going to be related to Hong Lu's story, which once more is a reason I really should get to reading all the books for this game.

Ryoshu accepting death from the possibility of fighting Don Qui the second was really funny.

The abno fights here are really good, and I love how Limbus is making unbreakable coins the standard from now on. Makes it so you can't just blaze through fights taking no damage, and these battles genuinely feel difficult. That's good. Their designs and mechanics are also pretty easy to understand and match with their ego gifts pretty well. God I wish we had more Rupture ids that could stack as much count as the Lasso abno.

Sancho fight was cool as hell. The clashable 10 speed skill was so good and made it feel like a massive improvement on the Cassetti fight. So good. On use coin power did mess me up a little given it doesn't show up in the clash numbers, but that was on me for not reading tbh.

Fun fact: final boss can be Meatlantern soloed really easily. So easy in fact that that's how I cleared it. Doing it with a full team didn't end well for me. The solo's also really consistent, which is nice.

Mili song is really good. As usual. I need to go listen to it again. I need an in-game mix. I need it. The childishness of Sancho's side of the tune compared with the seriousness of first Don's side is lovely.

Also. Please, in the final clash where you use Don's base ego. I hope you looked at the name of the ego and the name of Don the First's attack. Please. It's such a good detail. And it's so much better when you remember that Sancho was always the one making weapons for Don. He calls Sancho's lances much more graceful than his. It's so lovely. You can tell these two genuinely love each other. It's so good.

Also the fact that basically every fixer we went in with got wiped out by weakened Bloodfiends really shows just how powerful these bloodfiends are. Camille had to resort to using ego gear to survive. Sheesh.

That'll be all for now. Expect a long ramble on any of these points when I'm more free, aka never.

[oscconfessions]

Sigh... I'm gonna add my two cents about the Balloon arospec drama(I'm AroAce BTW) and by my two cents I mean I'll mention it two times and just talk about something else related. I'll also be providing some knowledge about AroAceness and all that.

For those of you who don't know,

Aro: Aromantic - Little to no romantic attraction.

Ace: Asexual - Little to no sexual attraction.

Aro+Ace are spectrums and aren't just "every Aro person doesn't feel any kind of romantic attraction" or "every Ace person can't feel sexual attraction." I feel as tbough people forget that all the time so I wanted to remind you lot haha.

I'm noticed this kind of drama a few times, where people argue about a character on where they are on the AroAce spectrum. It's difficult for me to put what I think into words here, but if a character(either canon AroAce or not) doesn't have a canon placement on the spectrum then whatever, go wild.

To help with my previous statement, I'll use SakiK from... SaikiK. People generally agree he's AroAce, yet people argue about where he is on that spectrum(mainly the Aromantic part). Since it's not ever stated where he is on that spectrum(or even if he is AroAce but SHHHSHSHHSH 🤫🤫), everyone has their own interpretation of it.

I believe it should be the same for Balloon, unless Balloon comes on screen and says "I am *insert very specific thing here* " as he points to a picture of the Aro spectrum then its to to you. Obviously, don't make him a sex crazed fiend or constantly searching for love, you eejit, but it should be up to interpretation.

A little off-topic here, sorry, but I wanted to bring up umbrella terms in both the Aro and Ace spectrums(I'm included ace because eh why not! This is for my people who HC Balloon as Aro AND Ace 🙏🙏)

Here are some terms under both the aro and ace spectrums. I feel as though you guys and many, MANY others tend to forget that there are umberlla terms for AroAce. I'll define them below:

Ace umbrella:

Aceflux: someone whose sexual orientation fluctuates but generally stays on the asexual spectrum

Greysexual: only experience sexual attraction some of the time, and sometimes not at all.

Demisexual: An individual who does not experience sexual attraction until after a close emotional bond has been formed.

Aro umbrella:

Aroflux: someone whose romantic orientation fluctuates but generally stays on the aromantic spectrum

Greyromantic: Some may feel a strong emotional connection with others but do not desire romantic relationships, while others may feel a weak romantic attraction to some people but not all.

Demiromantic: An individual who does not experience romantic attraction until after a close emotional bond has been formed.

Now, there are MANY more, feel free to add in the replies or the reblogs (o: !

Also, my apologies that this post was very long! Also also, my personal opinion on Balloons arospec thing? Idfk, lmao. TBH, this was kinda an excuse to just talk about stuff I like and am interested in so... 👍I've seen the tweet where one of the people who worked on II said yes, Balloon is meant to be Aro, but I couldn't tell you if they went into specifics about it. Sorry for constantly saying AroAce instead of just aro for Balloon, I felt like it was still important to include all my asexuals out there and educate others about it.

(BTW! Any inaccurate info, PLEASE, PLEASE correct in the replies)

Anyway!

TL;DR:

If a character who is just stated to be AroAce(not demi, grey, flux ETC) and never has their place on the spectrum explained whatsoever, it's okay to have a little fun experimenting with it IYKWIM. As I've stated, we all have our own interpretation of the AroAce character and there's no point arguing about it and getting mad because that's fucking stupid, unless they start actively getting rid of the AroAce rep then burn them to the stakes! /j

I know how wild you mother fuckers can be, so don't shank me please. If you disagree, take a deep breath and remain calm because getting all pissy about this isn't gonna do shit. Try to go about it calmly and reasonably. <3

I'd love to see others' opinions on this, remember to be respectful! 🩵

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[thedovahcat]

Its 1AM go to bed

Kinda just sitting here when I really should be in bed, but I’m too busy looking over a 4 year degree for cybersecurity or com sci software engineer idfk-

I don’t doubt I have the brain to fully make the transition from graphic design to com sci or something, but my god... Math is truly going to be the killer. I haven’t done ANY kind of algebra in about... gosh. Maybe a few years shy of a decade??

That’s going to be the biggest time and money waster. I don’t know if anything I did in community college is going to account for at least some of the more Gen Ed things, I’ll have to speak to a councilor about that. I ordered some extra sealed transcripts as well just in case.

No shame in starting over I guess. It’s crazy how we expect kids straight out of highschool to just hit the books hard some more to get that ‘good job’ they always told us about. My brain was fucking fried by the time I turned 18. I was sick of school, I didn’t want to be there and I had absolutely no plan. Didn’t know what I was going to do for a job. Graphic Designer is too broad for me, I need something way more specialized and something that’s going to be needed severely in the future. And computers are pretty much the only thing I care about/have interest in.

I dunno it just...

Feels weird that I have to start over in a way? This pandemic did a lot of damage everywhere though. Many folks have had to reinvent themselves n try something else, and really after this big move halfway across the whole country I’m not going to find a better chance. I have money saved up from my safety net, but I don’t know if that’s gonna be enough to solidly pay for a whole bachelors. It would be NICE! Certainly! I’m extremely hesitant about loans for obvious reasons. I don’t like that sword hanging over my head.

Just a whole lot to think about. I’m not thirty yet (almost though!) and really, age is just a number. If I gotta be in my mid thirties or whatever by the time I get a stupid degree actually worth something, just so I can secure a job that can pay a mortgage and allow me to live comfortably? It will have been worth it.

Sadly I am extremely allergic to hard work (so I say. I think it’s more how I feel, I’ll still saddle up but my god will I be dragging my feet), so I hope I don’t just collapse in the middle and want to quit.

I don’t think I will. Failure is not an option. It never was. I’ve always done very well in school, and I have no reason to doubt I will do well again. Maybe even moreso, coming at it with an older mind and much more experience than before.

It’s very difficult for me to not feel so hghnnghhgh about potentially wasting my time relearning math and other subjects I ain’t seen in a long time, but...if it’s what I have to do then so be it. I’ll figure something out.

It’s stressful just imagining it all right now but...

Kind of exciting too. Whatever happens it’ll be ok. Somehow.

[vbee-miya]

[romantic matchup]

╒═ @peeshposheddie ═╛

𝙵𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑 𝚞𝚙 - 𝚁𝚘𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝙺𝚘𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚋𝚎

Okay hear me out. You collect mangas. He’s a manga artist? Please bruh this wasn’t intended is. This was destiny (I had a last minute realization) 

I feel like with Rohan he’d be a great cuddler. Headcanon, but when he’s in the middle of drawing a manga arc and you just want that attention he’d allow you to sit on his lap while he works at godspeed..

FKHAKDFJHD u cant tell me that's not cute. 

With your personality being hyperactive he’d find that not necessarily adorable, but he’d definitely want you by his side for a manga character inspo, because you seem, well very lively. 

He doesn’t really like distractions while he works, but boy oh boy when it comes to you, he listens to what you want, say, need, etc. 

He thinks the way you cope with your ADHD is interesting and sometimes when you bombard yourself with tons of other stuff he’d watch in the distance perhaps leaning on a door while you're busy playing horror like games.

Speaking of which when you’re really into the game and he can tell he’d just grab his sketch book and try to sketch every reaction you have in god like speed.  

Being a manga artist can be difficult especially since so many across the world read his mangas and he has two fanboys living in the neighborhood. A good nap is what he needs. 

He won’t often take naps, but if he feels like he’s done enough drawing he’ll most definitely join you. 

I feel like he won’t be a fan of hikes. He doesn’t seem like an outdoorsy person ya know?

But a stroll in the town? Hell ya!

You’d most likely be the dominant one in this relationship (yes this can go for both ways. Depending on how you interpret it) 

With your child-like personality he’s like a mother to you. You love to clean, he'll clean with you AND your stuff. 

Can’t cook? Pfft please this man will cook you high quality Gordan Ramsey cuisines.

I feel like when he cooks it’ll be similar to him writing the manga, he’s always trying to come up with different ideas. New inspirations. 

One time you both went to Trattoria Trussardi and the moment you both went back home you’d see him try to attempt it. Wasn’t the best compared to Tonio’s, but it iz what it iz ya know. 

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I feel like the down side to the relationship is that he wouldn’t understand your phobia or why you hate bugs. Scream that there’s a bug don’t worry he’ll grab it, but i’m telling you luv run away from him like asap. Cus that man will dissect the insect. Of course for more realistic reasons being a manga artist. “I don’t understand Y/N. The fluids coming out now the lifeless creature is natural. What’s so scary about it? It’s just reality.” “Are you kidding me?! Rohan THE REALITY IS THAT IT LOOKS LIKE VOMIT!!” 

𝚂𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑 𝚞𝚙 - 𝙳𝚒𝚘 𝙱𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚘

...We don’t talk about the vampire Dio..Cuz he’sssssssssssssss - kinda funky. 

But it doesn't matter. Dio is Dio. 

Let’s start off with your interesting source of weaponry collections. 

Sure you’ll show them off here and there, but Dio? Nah. (word of warning, it’s best if he doesn’t know about that) But if he does Just know…..If you see some of them missing it’s most likely because he’s gone mad and is now using them for very Illegal reasons, BUT since he's a vampire stand user. Nothing can stop him. 

You love horror? SAY LESS! Living with him is like a horror movie. This isn’t your normal horror simulation game. 

Please bruh, he lives in the dark and shadows. And he’s kinda creepy. But attractive. Still creepy. 

You say you’re good at cleaning? Let’s just say uhhh...maid dress. Definitely not canon or fanon idfk really. But he’d most definitely love to see u in one. Catch him sitting  in the shadows cross legged as you clean. 

Definitely not creepy at all. 

AYO tell me why I can see him being the dominant one in this relationship. 

Cuz he is. This man will have the upper hand in everything. Even in a relationship. 

When Dio isn’t batshit crazy I hate the way I’m feeling about him, but vampy Dio would most definitely give the best cuddles. 

It’s just y’all two in the dark room, you on his chest (he’s most definitely gonna be shirtless) but he’ll drag his fingers down your spine giving you chills that’ll make you shuffle just a little closer to him thus resulting in him pulling you closer. 

I hate that I just wrote that. I really do. Anyways he’ll whisper shit like “I’ll make sure we can stay like this forever.” Please bruh, he’ll have a deep raspy like voice. Tell me he won't I dare you. 

CHILE ANYWAYSSSS SSSOOOOOOOOOO

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Downside is that you’re not very into PDA. Too bad he is. He barely goes out in the day so then when he does it'll be night time, even so who in the hell would see y’all kissing in the pits of the moonlight on top of a building or roof. No one…

But wait what about young Dio? Ya...loads of PDA. Most definitely in front of Jonathan Joestar. 

So that’s your pick Young Dio or Vampy Dio

On the contrary...You’ll definitely be getting loads of praises & he’d make sure you’d know he’s dead serious about them. 

𝙽𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑 𝚞𝚙 - 𝙻𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝙰𝚋𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚘

This man I’m not even going to get into it. He really just doesn’t seem like the romantic type to me. 

Even if he is I’d find it hard for him to keep up with your hyperactive personality.

He’d think collecting things is just child's play and that you should do other things besides that. Oh not to mention, but he wouldn’t understand why you’d be so scared to watch a horror movie, but yet play such games. It wouldn’t be logical to him. 

He’d think the way you cope with your anxiety is strange, but intriguing. 

It’ll just annoy him. You’ll be doing one thing then suddenly you’re onto something new. “Y/N just stick with one task. It’s not that hard.” “But it’s a way to help co-” “I said what I said.” This mf will just leave not giving a shit on what you’d say. 

Praises? Nah it’ll just be him spitting borderline insulting comments. 

Nice One KaTarA. 

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Plus side to the relationship...there really isn’t anything he’d just find you irritating. Probably when you’re sleeping? That’s when the house would be very quiet and who knows mayhaps this man does have a change of heart. If you’re asleep on the couch expect to wake up in the bed all tucked up nicely. With food ready to be served. 

Either that I'm not really seeing that much romantic value with Leone Abbicchio just in general. 

Again another really fun request. Hope you enjoyed your results @peeshposheddie. Sorry if I might’ve left any blanks. Or if the characters weren’t who you’d hope to get m(_ _)m

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For those who are still waiting please be patient. I've had a pretty busy schedule and workload. DM me if your request has been pending for about a month now.

𝙿𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝙲𝚑𝚎𝚌𝚔 𝙼𝚢 𝙽𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚐𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 (𝙿𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝙿𝚘𝚜𝚝) 𝙵𝚘𝚛 𝚁𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚄𝚙𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜

[irwinkitten]

man who can’t be moved | a.i

requested: yes; anon:  ok so i sobbed, thanks for that 😂. but what if there’s a part 2 and it takes place maybe a year or two later, and ash and his daughter develop a new mark, and it’s a new girl but she’s almost exactly like ash’s old soulmate. and since a name wasn’t mentioned this could be y/n. like they look almost exactly alike and act the same and stuff. idfk just a little thought

notes: okay so i changed it a bit buuuut i kept as close to it i think gtsassfdf 

warnings: angst and fluff

word count: 3.6k!

part one can be found here

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When Ashton woke up, praying that the entire night had been a bad nightmare, seeing his daughter curled against him, her clothes still splattered with blood because of him, his chest ached.

He could feel the tears falling as he pushed himself up, the physical ache rendering him gasping for breath as he fell to his knees, hand gripping the area above his heart as he tried to catch his breath.

Luke was the first to reach the room, his eyes taking in the slumped position of his best friend, the soft sobs as his shoulders shook and he wished for the universe to take his pain away, to make it less painful.

His eyes travelled to the little girl still fast asleep, her tear tracks dried out through the night. Luke felt even worse. He could not begin to fathom the pain the both of them were in.

Crouching down, he managed to get Ashton’s arm across his broad shoulders and slowly pulled him to his feet.

“C’mon. I packed some clothes for you and princess. Let’s get you showered and dressed, mate.” Luke’s voice was low and Ashton could feel panic fluttering in his chest. His little girl.

“She’ll be scared, need to make sure she’s okay-” He couldn’t understand his own words, grief clouding his mind but Luke understood. He nodded to Michael who went past the two, heading to the spare room where their niece was sleeping.

“Michael’s looking after her. She’s safe. But we need to get you cleaned up Ash. C’mon.” Luke pulled him to the bathroom, and after an internal debate, he switched the shower on and stripped Ashton down, climbing under the water with him.

He could see that Ashton was using him like a crutch, and he was slightly scared to leave his best friend alone, knowing that rational thinking wasn’t even comprehending in his friends mind at that moment.

As Ashton washed his body, the movements automatic, his eyes unseeing of the fact Luke was with him, Luke washed his hair, having spotted the few strands that seemed to have gotten blood, his heart aching as the slightly pink water ran clear as he washed the shampoo and conditioner out.

He made sure to run his fingers through his friends hair, checking there wasn’t anymore blood and unfocused eyes finally met his and Luke could see the moment it registered in Ashton’s mind that it was Luke and not his soulmate.

A sob ripped from Ashton’s throat, his fingers pressing around his mouth to stop the noise but Luke didn’t hesitate as he pulled Ashton close, his face pressed against his shoulder, another tortured noise escaping from his best friend. 

Luke could feel his heart shattering as his own tears fell, holding the shaking body of his best friend tightly, uncaring of the fact it was getting him soaked. 

“Please, Ash. I know it hurts. We need to get you out and downstairs first, let Mike get your lovebug cleaned up too.” 

He watched as Ashton’s body trembled, his lips pressed tightly to stop any noise but the tears still fell. Making sure there were no suds on his body, Luke switched off the water and helped him out of the shower, handing him a few towels.

Even though his clothes were damp, he stayed with Ashton, helping him get dried off, sitting him on the closed toilet seat.

“I’ll be back in a second, I just need to get your change of clothes Ash.” And he hurried back to the room where Michael was settled, their niece lay on his chest, face hidden against his neck. Luke could hear the soothing sounds escaping from Michael and he could feel tears prick the corners of his eyes. But he couldn’t cry any more, not now.

Grabbing the change of clothes for Ashton, he headed back to the bathroom and got him dressed. Half of him debated if he should help them get his little girl dressed, but then he realised that tears were falling down Ashton’s cheek and he decided against it for that moment.

Both of them were upset and they didn’t need him freaking out. So he pulled Ashton from the bathroom.

“Bathroom’s free.” He called back towards the bedroom, pulling Ashton downstairs. He didn’t even notice the boys’ soulmates, their eyes filled with their own tears but Luke shook his head at them.

Now wasn’t the time for sympathies.

He got him settled on the couch, trying to hold back his own tears at the almost vacant stare his best friend held, the tears running down his face, unbidden.

“Let it out Ash.” The wail that escaped sounded like something one would hear in a horror movie, the harsh sob shattering the peace of the day as he leaned on Luke and cried.

Once he’d got his niece cleaned up and changed into clean clothes, Michael didn’t dare bring her downstairs yet. He knew that Ashton needed to get this off his chest and having his daughter see him like that would absolutely not help in the slightest.

“Mommy’s gone.” She whispered once they were back in the room, the sheets changed. Michael spotted his soulmate walking past with the sheets bundled in her arms and he mouthed a silent thank you as she closed the door, a small smile on her lips in return.

“She’s gone baby, I’m so so sorry.” He knew the four year old wouldn’t understand his apologies, not at this age. All she knew was that she was hurting and there was nothing he could do about it.

Her face hid in his neck once more and he could feel her tears as he cradled her tightly.

“It hurts uncle Mike.” She finally whispered and he couldn’t stop his own tears as his heart broke for his niece.

“I know it does sweetheart. You’re allowed to cry to show it hurts.” His grip got marginally tighter as she finally let out a soft wail that turned into harsh sobbing. And all he could pray in that moment was that the universe would heal these two damaged souls.

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As time progressed, things became more difficult. Ashton was terrified of letting his little girl out of his sight for the first six months. Even then, he could just about let his brothers look after her with their soulmates.

For the first six months after the news broke of his soulmates death, the band came to a grinding halt. Ashton barely struggled through the days, let alone focusing on his work. No one complained, especially after a photo leaked of his burned tattoo. When the photo had leaked, people suddenly realised that losing such a person damaged you.

No one said a bad word to the band for their choice to stop so that they could all heal.

When his little girl turned five, and she woke up screaming, Ashton nearly had a heart failure as he bolted from his bed, practically breaking down the door to her room, eyes wild and searching for the threat before her saw her curled in a fetal position, her hands clutching her heart and both relief and dread filled him.

“Shh, it’s okay baby.” He whispered as he sat on her bed, pulling her onto his lap, cradling her against his chest.

Part of him wondered why this was hurting her, his memories searching back to when he was younger. He’d never felt the pain of gaining his soul mark, so why was she?

When her sobbing died down and he took her to the bathroom to run a cold flannel over the mark, he understood immediately when he peeled her shirt away.

Her soul mark was beautiful, two swans entwined. He prayed that was the universe reassuring him that she would never have to live through what he did. But he could see his own mark on her skin as well as her mothers. Her mother’s, the same one that sat burned on his chest, was an exact replica, burned and all. And his heart broke.

But just to check, he pulled his shirt off, watching as her eyes went to the darkened mark on his chest and her fingers reached out, touching it.

“It matches yours, daddy.” Her voice was quiet.

“It’s for your mommy, lovebug. This one here, this is the one that mommy had for daddy.” His fingers traced the mark gently and understanding filled her eyes. Then her hand moved to the crown that was sat above the burned out mark.

“Is that for me, daddy?” His eyes took in the mark and he smiled.

“I guess it is, princess. Just like you’ve got your daddy's mark too.”

He researched for days about this happening afterwards. A few of those who studied the field of work that surrounded soulmates had an understanding that this was part of the marking process that happened with those that formed the friendship bonds. The bond between a child and parent that was so strong, the marks would appear on those who shared such a bond with them.

Low and behold, his friends and their soulmates had received a crown too. Ashton was relieved that she had such a bond with her closest and that was when he began to ease up, giving her room to be a child once more.

As they began to go back to the studio again, Ashton learning to live once more, he tried not to let the overwhelming sadness crush him. He took joy in the small moments, especially when his little lovebug declared she wanted to be just like her daddy.

Whenever she asked, he always told her stories about her mommy.

The boys always chimed in, especially when she stayed at theirs if Ashton was tracking late. She never stayed at home if he tracked late, because he had such a fear of the same thing happening again, but this time he’d lose her too.

When she turned six, both of them gained a new mark. This mark was a butterfly, intertwined with Ashton’s mark on his daughter, and the same with the crown on his chest, connecting to the burned mark.

This had left both of them confused and once more, Ashton found himself in contact with those that studied. .

They could only theorise what it meant. Many were supportive that it was the universe giving him a second soulmate. But even he’d not heard of that before now. There was such little research, and despite hating the idea of being some scientific experiment, Ashton agreed to keep them updated.  

He never thought much of the mark as breathing got easier for him. He felt like his heart was slowly being repaired. As they released a new album, he felt slightly guilty when he requested they held a stricter stance on questions pertaining to soulmates. Management were hesitant, because fans loved hearing the stories of their soulmates.

But even the boys agreed with Ashton on this one.

“He might be getting better, but the last thing we need is one badly worded question. Especially in front of his little girl. No soulmate questions.” Luke had spoken up, his tone firm and unrelenting.

Ashton was grateful.

Over the two years, it wasn’t unusual to have found the two Irwins over at Luke’s. He didn’t hesitate to open his arms to his older bandmate, just like Ashton had done for him in the years previous.

It’d been one way for Ashton to cope through the worst nights. They each understood to an extent the pain that ached in his chest, that left him breathless.

After Luke’s declaration, they relented and agreed. The tour began as did promo and it was certainly a change in pace, especially with an energetic six year old who could be heard playing games with her uncles at any given time.

It was one of the more exhausting days that it happened.

It’d been a rare night where his little girl had suffered with strong nightmares, her terrified whimpers had Ashton shooting out from his bunk, crawling into the bottom one where his little girl lay.

He couldn’t seem to rouse her from the nightmare, and so all he could do was hold her as she whimpered in her sleep, tiny fists curling around his shirt, resting over his soulmarks.

He gave up trying to sleep as he attempted to soothe his little girl, and before long, dawn broke across the sky and the rest of the bus were starting to move. Tired eyes met his and tears filled hers as she realised that her daddy was with her.

“Please don’t leave.” Came her broken whisper and Ashton felt something in his chest crack, his mind wishing that he could heal her broken heart and take the nightmares away.

“Never, angel. I promise. You wanna stay with me today?” She nodded, burying her head against his chest.

“Please.”

The boys knew something was up because their niece was mostly quiet as they ate breakfast. With a glance to Ashton who mouthed ‘nightmare’ they understood that today was going to be a tough one.

“Do you want us to take over on the interviews?” Luke quietly asked and Ashton shook his head.

“They’ve been told they can’t ask soulmate questions. If someone can give them a heads up that she’s gonna be with me it should be fine.” Ashton murmured in return as he watched her curl up on Michael’s lap, his arms wrapped around her tightly as they watched cartoons on the bus’ TV.

‘Can the universe not fuck with me today? I don’t ask for much.’ Flew through Ashton’s mind and he froze, his breath catching.

With Michael and Calum focusing their attentions on his little girl, they missed how he gasped.

Luke didn’t.

Luke managed to haul Ashton off the bus, muttering about getting some fresh air and the other two didn’t question it at the bus door closed behind them.

“What happened Ash?”

“There’s, it was, a connection.” He breathed out in shock, eyes wide as he stared at Luke. He could feel the bubble of fear in the pit of his stomach, and Luke placed his hands on Ashton’s shoulders, blue eyes holding hazel.

“Breathe. Check the connection. Calm down.” His eyes followed the numbers that Luke was mouthing, his breathing slowing down as he closed his eyes for a second. He remembered what the connection to a soulmate felt like.

‘Maybe the universe is playing us both.’ He sent back tentatively.

‘Holy shit, I didn’t think anyone would have my connection.’ Came back and he felt an echo of the shock he’d been experiencing.

‘That makes two of us.’

Luke was staring at Ashton as he finally refocused his gaze, his mind torn. He was given another soulmate.

“I’ve got another soulmate.” He breathed and Luke stared at his friend in shock.

“How do you feel about that?” Luke asked carefully and Ashton felt the conflict within his head. Luke could see it in his friends eyes, the frustration and the fear. He knew that three years could never erase the pain he’d suffered, losing his first soulmate, but the universe clearly deemed him ready.

‘Don’t listen to your mind. Listen to your soul. I did.’ Came soft whispers from his soulmate. Ashton took a deep breath, ignoring the fear at the back of his mind and working through his emotions. And he realised that despite the fear of what could happen, as unlikely as it could be to happen twice, his chest didn’t ache at the thought of his first soulmate like it used to. He didn’t feel like a part of him was missing, nor did he feel like his heart was on fire like it used to be.

He breathed out.

“Good.” He finally responded to Luke; knowing that it was the only answer he could really clarify.

Luke found himself smiling.

As the day got on, in between the first set of interviews, Ashton found himself alternating between talking with his soulmate and soothing his little girl. It had been a testing day for both of them, exhaustion evident to anyone who spent more than five minutes with them. But they kept going.

It was as they were heading to their final interview of the day that she dropped a piece that made him laugh out loud.

‘Considering that I’ve done nothing but do coffee runs and pester people, I’m now being a runner for the band that’s about to show up to our radio station.’

‘Oh? What band would that be?’ He could feel his heart rate rise a little, the excitement coursing through his veins.

‘5 Seconds of Summer.’ And he laughed, making his bandmates stare at him as if he’d lost his mind.

“My soulmate is about to be our runner.” He explained quietly. His daughter had been distracted by the games on his phone, but her eyes turned to his, hopeful.

“Does it mean you’re gonna be happy now daddy?” His heart melted. He’d been honest with them when Luke had pulled him back on the bus. He’d spent time explaining to his little girl what it meant and she surprised him with her response.

“I want my nightmares to go away. Mommy keeps telling me to wait, is this what she meant?” Ashton’s heart melted as he’d held her and whispered that he hoped so.

“Hopefully baby.” He murmured, tucking her into his side as the car pulled up to the radio station.

‘Well we’ve just pulled up. See you in a second, soulmate.’ He felt her shock echo through the bond as they stepped out. Ashton smiled apologetically as fans called his name, and he kept a firm grip on his little girl as the boys went and greeted the fans that were waiting outside of the radio station.

Once he stepped through the doors and he found himself face to face with the runner, her eyes met his and he could feel peace settle. His body wasn’t riddled with wounds any more.

When she glanced down to his little girl, he felt her relax into him, a bright grin spreading across her face as she shot forward, her arms wrapping around his soulmate.

“My mommy told me to wait for you.” Her face was pressed into his soulmates stomach, words muffled. But he could see her entire body visibly relax as her arms wound around his little girl.

“I would apologise for her, but she gets that from me.” He teased, his eyes staring down fondly. Keeping her arm wrapped around the little girl, she held her hand out to him.

“Good job it doesn’t bother me.” Was all that left her lips and Ashton stepped closer, his hand taking hers and he felt the bond flourish, something that left him breathless in the best way as he stepped forward, aware that his little girl was yet to let his soulmate go.

His lips met hers for a brief second, his body practically vibrating from the bliss that he was experiencing before she finally pulled away, crouching down to his daughters height.

“I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I promise that I’ll love you and your dad with everything that I have.”

Later that night, back at her place as they lay together, his fingers tracing the delicate marks that marked her skin, he slowly understood. She had her own burned mark but just like his own one, her new mark that was his sat entwined with his daughters, still connected with her burned mark.

“I had the strangest dreams for months, you know.” She hummed as they lay together. His eyes turned to hers and she smiled slightly.

“How so?”

“I had dreams of a life that wasn’t mine. I had dreams of meeting you at an airport and the feeling of relief mixed with bliss, even though there were too many people, I kissed you.” Ashton froze for a second.

“Really?” He breathed out, his eyes searching her face, praying that she wasn’t lying.

“You said something along the lines of ‘at least the universe gave us this cliche’ and I laughed. Does that mean something to you?” And instead of feeling pain, he could only feel a fondness fill his chest as he pulled her closer, his lips finding her temple.

“That was the first time I met my first soulmate. We’d tried meeting before, but our instincts had screamed at us to abandon the plan. But we figured that meeting at the airport was a better possibility.” He explained and she felt relief flood across her features.

“Would you mind telling me about the other dreams then? I’m curious that I seem to know stuff, but I have no context.”

And as they settled together, him feeling safe in the knowledge that his little girl was with the boys back on the bus and his soul feeling healed for the first time in years, he finally had a grasp on his life and the feeling that it was back on track.

The universe had connected two broken souls and he was almost certain that fate was on their side this time as he kissed the mark once more, her own fingers tracing his as he did so.

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Curious Conundrum (Part 1)

Prompt: You’re John Watson’s sister. One day you decide to visit your brother for lunch, only to meet the infamous Mr. Holmes...

Word Count: 1600

Warnings: language, flirtation, sexual innuendos (maybe? idfk), murder/crime/case related stuff, angst...

Notes: THIS TOOK FOR FUCKIN EVER TO WRITE. But it’s done. Anyway, this is the longest series I’ve ever written (Yes, longer than inexplicable fate, and longer than Who Will Win). It started out to be a one shot, then i needed background, so i was like “well maybe five parts will do....” but here we are... Beta’d by @carryonmyswansong Not only did she beta, but I literally couldn’t have written half these scenes without her help. She contributed majorly, even wrote some parts of scenes. I am forever in her debt. 

Also, this starts AFTER Season 2, episode 1. I don’t follow all the episodes (in fact i try not to, really) but it does follow the timeline and hit some major events : )

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Walking up the dreary, sunless London sidewalk, you knocked on the address your brother had given you some time ago. With work and life though, getting around to seeing his new apartment and his “new” flatmate had been a bit of a task. But now, after one and a half years, you had finally promised yourself, and him, that you would spend more time with him and informed him you would be coming by the flat to meet Mr. Sherlock Holmes. Not to mention, giving your big brother some well deserved teasing for his new place.

You knocked with the large, crooked hanger on the door of 221B Baker street, only to stand there for a long moment before an elderly woman opened the door.

“Can I help you, deary?” she asked kindly.

“Ah, yes, I’m looking for John Watson, is he in?”

“Yes, I believe he is,” she sweetly informed as she turned and guided you up the stairs. “John! John!” she sing-songed as she came up the stairs to an apartment with two opened entry doors. “You have a visitor!” she called out.

“Mrs. Hudson, please stop talking,” a tall man with dark curls requested as he stood staring at the wall.

“Oh, hush, Sherlock. Where’s John?”

“How should I know?” he quietly responded, his eyes never leaving a wall filled with pictures.

Mrs. Hudson rolled her eyes just as John came down the hall and into the living room. A rather...dusty living room. It was an organized mess. It wasn’t dirty, or filled with clutter, per se, but it could certainly use a bit of TLC.

“Y/N?” John breathed when he saw you and you smiled at your big bro.

“Hey, John,” you greeted with a large grin. He immediately pulled you into a quick embrace before introducing you to Mrs. Hudson, before she had to leave quickly to answer her phone downstairs.

“Hey, so glad you’re here. Do you have time for lunch or…?” he asked as he smiled at you.

“Oh, yeah, sure.”

“That’s fantastic. Well...Uh, unfortunately, we’re in the middle of a case, so I don’t have too much time...But I can take you down to the diner downstairs for some fish and chips maybe?”

“I’d love some,” you informed.

“Great. Let me grab my jacket and we’ll go.”

“Alright,” you said before turning to the strange man again, watching his lips hum as he spoke quickly to himself, his eyes scanning the images. “Wonder why he did that?” you murmured as you looked at the photos.

“Did what?” Sherlock asked with a trace of irritation.

“Placed the bodies facing a mirror. It’s like he wanted them to watch their final moments,” you said.

The man turned and faced you, now that you saw him fully he was rather handsome, in an unconventional sort of way. Tall, lean, dark curls, pale skin, eyes that were a strange hue of blue-green-gray. He took your breath away as he stared at you as if you had a codfish on your head.

“What did you just say?”

You gestured to the pictures with a nod. “It is a murder case, correct? Multiple homicides? They’re all facing a mirror. Why did he do that?”

“I hadn’t even...I didn’t even see that. How did you see that?”

“From the other pictures of the room,” you stated as if it were obvious. You laughed at him for a moment. “You see, Mr. Holmes, but you do not observe.”

He made a peculiar face at you. “Funny...Usually I’m saying that to John or Lestrade, it’s rarely ever said to me,” he remarked, his tone as if he were working out a complex equation in his head. His eyes trained on you, trailing up and down your body.

You nodded casually. “All of the pictures of the room, the way the furniture is oriented, the way the bodies are facing, towards a mirror.”

“I--What an excellent observation.”

“Thank you,” you mused before your brother stepped back into the living room.

“Ready to go?”

“Who is this?” Sherlock asked outright to John, gesturing to you with his eyes.

“My sister, why?” John questioned.

Sherlock made a surprised face quickly before wiping it away. “Hmm.”

“What? Is that a problem?”

“No...You’re just much more useful than him, I wouldn’t have assumed as much,” he commented and you felt slightly offended for your brother.

John had told you about Sherlock. He had told you he could deduce nearly impossible things from the shape of a man’s tie, the color of a woman’s nail polish, the state of a child’s shoes. Though he ran a blog about their lives that you could read, you never did. You read their first case together, but that was it. You wanted to save your first impression of Sherlock to a face to face encounter. So far, he wasn’t disappointing, but he wasn’t exactly living up to the hype your brother had given him either.

“Well...thank you, I think,” you said with a funny expression, turning to John. “Shall we go?”

“Go? Go where? You can’t go. You need to come with me. We need to go to the crime scene of the latest murder. I need your deduction skills,” Sherlock said, sounding urgent and nearly insisting.

“Sherlock, my sister is not assisting us on a case. We’re going downstairs to have a quick lunch, then you and I will go to the crime scene and--”

“Does it get boring, being an attorney?” Sherlock suddenly asked, clearly ignoring everything John had been saying.

“No, why?” you casually responded. “How...did you know I was an attorney?”

“Your suit. It’s from only one shop in London. It’s pressed, neat, not a thread out of place. Rather expensive. Too much for a realtor, your long nails and polish suggest you aren’t a doctor, and politicians don’t dress as glamorous as you. Your shoes are barely scuffed, but your comfortable in heels. Your feet show little sign of strain from said heels which means you wear them a lot, but you’re not on your feet all day, so you have a desk job, for the most part.”

You laughed and Sherlock gave you a funny look.

“I’m sorry,” you apologized, shaking your head and waving your hand to dismiss your outburst. “It just occurred to me that John probably told you at one point or another, I was an attorney.”

Sherlock frowned. “No...Don’t believe it came up.”

Your eyes went to John and he shrugged. “I don’t think I ever told him what you do. I think I’ve only said your name once, as well.”

“You mean to tell me you go on and on about Sherlock to me, but I can’t so much as get a good word in from you?” you teased.

“You try talking to him about something other than himself. It’s incredibly difficult,” he informed with a tease and a nudge of your shoulder.

“You don’t believe I deduced that,” Sherlock insinuated.

“Quick one, aren’t you?” you remarked with an eyebrow twitch.

“Okay, fine. You...you’re…you...” he stammered, seeming to restart his sentence a few times. He was staring at you as if you were a puzzle. “I...better get back to looking at these crime scenes. Murders and all that,” he said as he spun to face the wall.

You gave him an amused expression, although he couldn’t see it, and you and John made your way downstairs to the cafe.

“I thought you said he could deduce anything,” you commented once the two of you gathered your food.

“He can. I’ve never seen him clam up like that,” he responded as the two of you sat down at a table. “When we met, he had deduced Harry’s drinking problem and even marital problems, just on a phone.”

“Yes, you told me. You’ve told me he can tell if someone’s spouse is cheating and with whom, what they had for breakfast….Yet, he couldn’t get any further than me being a criminal attorney? A little disappointing don’t you think?” you inquired with an eyebrow raise.

“No, it’s a breath of fresh air...Let’s me know he is human, beneath all that…”

The two of you smiled at each other before digging in.

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You ascended the stairs and noticed that the photos on the wall were now strewn across the coffee table, floor, and makeshift desk.

“Have you caught your left handed murderer yet?” you inquired to Sherlock as you entered the flat, curious to see how he worked.

“Not quite. I just need to find what ties these people together,” he murmured. “Left handed you say? How?”

You came over and pointed at their heads. “Their hair and faces. The bruising indicates more force from the left, all of their bodies are planted so that they are looking left, and their hair is dramatically more mussed up on the right side, indicating he stood over them and used his left hand to situate them.”

Sherlock’s eyes slowly rose from the pictures on the floor to your face. “You must’ve gotten all of the deduction skills in the family. Certainly John didn’t,” he remarked.

“Thank you,” John sarcastically remarked.

“Well, I must be off,” you stated, getting to your feet.

“What? No. I need you here,” Sherlock insisted.

“Maybe another time, Holmes. I’m sure you can crack this one on your own,” you said with a coy smile before going over and hugging your brother.

“What a delight,” Sherlock mumbled as he stared after your descending form on the stairs.

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EPISODE THREE

“this was literally one of the worst decisions i've ever had to make so now i'm just kinda pissed off!” - nash

HOH: Nash UPSIDE DOWN: Joey & Saira NOMINEES: Brianna & Gina POV: Jacob FINAL NOMINEES: Emma & Gina EVICTED: Gina (11-1), Jake (WALK)

ARIA

https://youtu.be/SyHPQkbxxw8

JOEY

WATCH THIS AGE LIKE MILK:

I feel great!!!!! Nash winning means my ass aint going up, I gave her 2 tokens, and she gave me 1, and I feel fantastic heading into this week

SAIRA

i feel okay about nash being hoh, she wasn't my first choice but i don't think im in any danger of being nominated (hopefully haha) im not sure who i WOULD want to be nominated, i just know who i wouldn't want, so as long as they're okay i'm good!

JEV

I'm once again feeling pretty good this week. I've grown pretty close to Nash since nominating her in week 1 and she told me and Nathan we aren't going up so, there's that! She's told me Gina is going up and will be her target which I'm not thrilled about but hopefully Gina can pull some miracle and win POV. I'm a little worried about Emma and Jake too, as they've both said they haven't spoken to her much which is dumb, bc like hello??? its week 3, i feel esp with Jake, I can understand Emma bc Nash keeps leaving her on read but I don't think Jake has even tried much (crying emoji) So hopefully they can ALSO pull something out

JAKE

FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate everyone in this game t b h. why can't people just follow with a plan and go through with it like it aint that hard to put your chips on one person from your alliance so youre all safe like........ i dont think these ppl understand strategy and it's TIRING. i frankly am over people relying on their friendships to get themselves through another week bc fucking nash won an alliance-based hoh comp. now we have to deal w this fucking friend group running the house another week. i don't know if i'm safe i'm honestly probably going to be put up??? even tho nash is the one that CONSTANTLY ignores my PMs even tho ive given her paragraphs to respond to... she's gonna do whatever her little friends want her to do. i mean that's what she literally said to me. i was like pls don't nom me <3 and she was like "im not making any promises im just doing whatever the house wants me to do" like girl............ lkjghklsdfjhg what kind of dumbass bullshit response was that. just tell me you're putting me up or you're not. youre a big girl you can make your own fucking decisions.

i give nash what i would give any hoh if they won and that is "i'd never ever nominate you it's never even crossed my mind" and hoping that's enough to make her wanna keep me. she might think im not going after her but, if she's smart, she'll send me out the door this week before i can retaliate. 

im super super worried that jacob will be like oh jev n jake aligned in BBHOS9 u should put them up together since jev nominated you week 1. like i feel like she'd do ANYTHING jacob tells her at this point cuz shes just another one of his sheep so like hoping im good w jacob but he's such a wildcard idfk

at this point im just hoping me or emma don't get put up and if we do there will be a veto to be won and a nash/jacob to come after next so...... period

ARIA

yall i feel so fucking cracked and tired of everything but itS FINE!!! I got this easy peasy!! Im not going to always feel motivated but im doing my best and thats valid baby!!! So lets jump in, first off lets start with a random information dump of things i've collected

-jacob has talked about me w/ nicholas during pasio

-monty and jacob have a connection ( i dont even remember how)

-nathan nash (maybe jacob) obviously tight lmao

-joey monty close

-Jake made a counter alliance to Jacob's (actually joshes) alliance made of me gina saira emma and josh

-josh emma me alliance

-JOEY RECORDS CALLS

-Jake is wary of nathan (but also thinks hes cute ugh)

-told jake im wary of pasio peeps so he might nom them

-Jacob alliance STILL isnt created

-called with josh and told him that jacob is wary that the alliance isnt made yet

-jacob josh have a pregame

-told josh, saira and nick have a pregame

-josh kiki close

-josh thinks saira is a social threat 

-josh prefers jev over nathan

-told monty to talk to jake more

-told joshua jacob is the most connected person

-got back to nash gina doesnt like her

-jacob kiki nash confirmed trio alliance

-nash told jev gina is the target (jev then told jake)

-josh thought jacob was the original maker of the alliance

-jake thinks jacob/josh are snakes

-jake also thinks jacob-josh-nash-kiki-bri-nick-nathan are an alliance

-josh wants to play the middle w/ me :uwu:

 So from here I want to get into how my ideal week will go and how it will realistically go. IDEALLY Nash noms jev and josh with them not winning veto and the house gets rid of a utr social threat but realistically its gonne be gina and jake with gina going bc she doesnt talk to anyone of have any motivation for this game (I LITERALLY WROTE HER A PARAGRAPH TO SEND TO NASH TO NOT BE NOMINATED AND SHE GOES "hmm idk maybe ill send it" LIKE????) 

Okay the other thing im freaking out about is bc i feel like theres tension between me Jacob Josh and Jake and im not sure what it is about. I mean i kinda do but im missing key components. The whole situation just doesn't sit right with me at all and I feel very at odds with them in a weird kinda way. I've explained this so many times but i have such a bad feeling that josh leaked the janelle alliance to jacob and is more with him than me and now josh is setting these two sides against each other and i just heard from him that nash isnt nomming him so now im really uncomfy ughhhh i have such a bad feeling and i really need to work on people like jev saira monty to make sure i have people behind me i can fall back on, but also im getting the vibe jake really really trusts me which is great because i want to go far with him as well, unless hes just misting me SUPER hard ughhh

god i just have such a bad feeling about this week buts its fINE totally fine ill work it out eventually,,,but now its trust ranking time yay

1.Gina (youre so inactive i adore you!)

2.Joshua (kid GANG!!! thank you for trusting me sometimes <3)

3.Jake (hes a crackhead but hes my crackhead)

VERY BIG GAP

4.Emma (shes chilling what a lovely gal)

5.Monty (better inactive than be active and a threat)

6.Nathan (youre kinda sketchy but hes like a funky older brother)

7.Josh (youre at the center of a balancing act i wonder if u can keep it up)

8.Nick (they always give such an honest vibe,,,,,i dont trust it)

9.Brianna (shes so sweet but the sweetest angels make the fiercest demons)

10.Jev(,,,,your on slightly thicker ice than joey but combined with a little more charisma)

ANOTHER GAP WOOT WOOT

11.Joey (youre on THIN fucking ice buddy,,,,please be more open w/ me)

12.Saira (im begging for u to talk game to me,,, but also since we havent talked u cant snake me yet)

13. Jacob (idk ily sm but youre so fcking connected and idk if i reached ur inner circle yet)

14. Kiki (my favorite furry)

15.Nash (please talk to me im begging ill do anything please plsease plaease plae-)

So update ive been talking around and wow this game loves looking at my allies and kicking them in the kneecaps while spitting in their eyes ugh. So nash is probably leaning towards nomming jake and Gina with gina as the target (really weird that jake is nommed makes me think jacob had some influence there) but in that scenario best case is that veto is used and anyone but josh goes up and that person leaves easy fucking peasy!! Anyway i just talked with josh and apparently jacob was the one who came up with the alliance idea which is interesting bc he tried to pin it on josh. Anyways not to totally contradict my initial rant but me and josh had a really good chat where we're kinda in the same position between two groups (the og alliance and janelle) and we dont know if we should make the og alliance and with who bc of janelle so we're struggling to see whats the correct move from here....or maybe josh is completely misting me but i fucking hope not ugh- either way im surviving this week and thats that!!

JEV

I'm realising that I'm getting myself into a pretty tight position since I have firm alliances with Emma & Jake and Nash & Nathan, as well as being extremely close to Josh C, which could prove difficult for me down the line, but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

KIKI

https://youtu.be/6cn8xUFWqhA

BRIANNA

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1XvZzg3dTEZ89VeFbG3bxk4JFNtr7Ixm0/view?usp=sharing 

i had to use google drive bc it wouldn't take my file on youtube :((((

JEV

So right now I've somehow accidentally wriggled my way into conspiring with Nash on how best to take Gina out, which is so dumb of me because I don't really want to see Gina leave this week, but at the same time I'm having to fight Nash's decision because she wants to put Emma up beside her and... I can't let that happen because I'm worried Emma would leave over Gina

JEV

So I'm speaking to Nash, taking the heat off of Emma by telling her I feel she could be a number for me/her/Nathan down the line, and now I'm pushing for Brianna to go up since Nash wants someone who 100% wouldn't leave over Gina and I'm thinking like... WHO would vote to evict Brianna, but at the same time I'm feeling super terrible about it because Brianna is a literal angel

JEV

Wow a lot going on so I'm trying to update as best I can, Nash is saying she's going to randomise for who goes to the upside down so I'm having to encourage her not to include me or Nathan in the randomisation just incase she needs us for strategising but REALLY its so I can stay and hang around and try my best to keep Emma from touching the block at all this week.

NASH

sorry for nominating women i didnt mean it.

EMMA

If i am being honest the more this game goes by i get so unmotivated and its only week 3 i suck because well in bbgames like galar and almia i mostly played from the bottom now im like alright i kinda want to fuck up my game for fun but kinda pisses me off a bit that i almost could of been nominated if it wasnt for jev but that pisses me off so much i tried talking to nash but i get left on read i dont take things 100x personal unless if somebody is being mean like laughing etc but knowing that i would be on the block over brianna when i did try talking to nash its still hurts a little but if somebody like gina wins veto if i get on the block it issss what it isss i guess but i played on the bottom way to many times maybe i can do this??

JEV

So my efforts worked and Brianna went up instead of Emma, now I've just gotta hope neither of the noms win POV/that the POV isn't used so I don't have to throw someone elses name out there to Nash :flushed:

JOSH

hello ladies and gays. straights aren't welcome here.

today, we are feeling GOOD because the person we nominated just a few days ago won power and STILL didn't nominate me. is that iconnery or what? i was honestly ready for my ass to be TOAST but i did approach nash before they won HOH and had a conversation about where we stood and they said i would be OKAY this week bc we did start talking. we love to see it, yes we do!

the nominees this week are gina and brianna and.. even though i'm in two different alliances with both of them, i'm not mad at either of them going up. i don't REALLY talk with either and i'd be happy to see either one of them go. the tricky part will be figuring out WHO to vote when the time comes, but we have a POV to happen before we get there. we'll SEE.

if i had to choose, i'd probably send brianna home simply because i find her a bit CHAOTIC where i feel like gina isn't really going to cause a lot of waves with me. she's much more quiet whereas brianna is more likely to be able to pick herself back up.

some other fun events going on:

jake was NOT happy about nash winning and thought he was going to get nominated because of it. he was about to RIP nash a new one and is really brewing with how much he hates them. MAKES ME LAUGH A LIL BECAUSE IT WAS SO UNWARRANTED BUT NEVERTHELESS, it's something to note that jake does NOT like nash.

i think aria is my number one right now bc we get along really well and have very similar opinions. i'm really open with how i talk to her so i'm HOPING she's not spilling everything i say to someone else but i don't think she WOULD? i dunno. i love her energy and i'm hoping we can SLICE AND DICE together in the middle.

my strategy is to take my HOH under my belt and take a step back for a minute while my two alliances (one: jake, aria, gina, emma, saira, me & two: jacob, aria, brianna, kiki, me) get picked off back and forth. i'm going to see if i can craft a narrative for them to go after each other but we'll SEE. there are a lot of people in the middle i enjoy a lot more than some of the people in my alliances so IDK. i feel like some people got thrown into these alliances that i did NOT want but they were kind of forced in so i don't trust it. and i think people KNOW because i'm not very chatty abt it in the chats (and i haven't even made one of the chats. am i supposed to? idk)

anyways that's all for now x 

ARIA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zp71zzR-wgE

someone help

JAKE

https://voca.ro/g2ZQWs9x8du

JEV

Not miss Nash coming to me asking how I'd feel about being renom :flushed:

JEV

So I literally just woke up from a sleep and in the space of 30 minutes have had to talk Nash out of renomming me, Emma or Jake since we've just made an alliance together so I warned her that probably wouldn't work out for us in the long run. We narrowed it down and she shortlisted Aria, Josh C, Monty & Nick, and I have spun her to try and get her to nominate Aria, because 1. I don't wanna see Josh C go up and 2. like with Brianna I feel nobody here would vote to evict Aria, and Nash wants Gina GONE (crying emoji) so I feel this was the only logical renom to suggest.

JEV

The conversation has turned back to Emma and I just really don't wanna let that happen because I do feel like she'd leave over Gina. Part of me is saying not to stick my neck out too much to save Emma but at the same time she's my number 1 in this game and I hope she'd return the favour if she was in my position.

NASH

this was literally one of the worst decisions i've ever had to make so now i'm just kinda pissed off! 

ARIA

Well,,,, FBSFJDF I feel like im making so many of these but honestly this game changes everyday so please dont be too annoyed by me uwu, the mood swing i had just this DAY was insane so lets begin w/ the general info-

IN TIME LINE ORDER

-Jev told jake that something about noms but acted dumb when I asked

-Gina/Joshua/Aria alliance created!!

-Saira and Josh are close

- VIDEO DR GOES HERE

-Jake spills Emma-Jev-Nathan-Nash-Jake alliance with Emma/Jev/Jake being a trio as well= Jev created the alliance

-Jev prefers gina out

-jake doesnt believe in screenshots or recording calls

-Jev and Jake are close

-Jev/Jacob/Jake all played together before

-I leaked Bri's backups to Jake as well as Jacob's trio with Nash and Kiki

-nash almost backdoored jev bc he wasnt responding to her

-jev was the reason i was almost otb

-I WAS ALMOST OTB

-Josh AND Jacob both want Jake out

-Bri thinks nash's comp ability is scary

-Nash and Nick are close 

-Jacob nervous about Bri's backup leaking

-Jacob barely talks w/ saira and monty

-made a final three w/ jacob josh called malibu

So now im debating whether its morally okay for me to analyze what happened in the living room in a game sense. FBSdffan So lets run down things in chronological order and I might mention my thoughts if they arent too controversial, Nathan leaks the alliance with jev/nash/jake/emma. Eventually emma says 'i wanna know who put these thoughts in the hohs head" and nick starts to shut the discussion down which is an interesting contrast to their earlier attitude where they were very for the drama continuing, which leads me to begin they had some sort of hand in it. Nathan goes on to say he likes nash on a personal lvl which jake analyzes as a nod to a friendgroup and a mini confrontation between nathan and jake occur. I believe that part was just a misunderstanding on both parties account. Then happy discussion until Jake calls nash out for being in the diary session for too long which leads to a discussion of house guests over analyzing production and using that as a strategy which is ultimately unfair and also at this time I believe nash was going through itTM leading to their friends to be slightly defensive on their behalf (which is valid) and i after rereading things i really hope that they're okay, ultimately this leads up to frustration on Jake's part and his ultimate quit. 

I mean where do i go from here? I have the Bri's angels but that did get leaked to Emma on Jake's way out so i need to figure some way to micromanage that where i think im gonna make a emma jev alliance and work with them as a trio in the future (if gina goes) but rn i feel like this force of energy that is Bri's backups is gonna body for a bit but i think theyre gonna throw hoh leading me jev or emma to step up and body a bit. Like i think i might actually win hoh and nom nash and monty with a nick potential renom bc im BORED and nash continuing to skate by without even talking to me is not valid, and monty is so not here its like??? HEWWO??? but idk thats making big moves i may just chill a bit for now but i dont want jev and emma being targeted in the future bc theyre gonna be numbers for me and thats on PEWIOD!

HOST WEEKLY CAST ASSESSMENT

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L25lY813N1k&list=PLFEwPPy8j010XXwntq80VSU0qLNTNpSIN&index=4&t=0s

[a-panda-reads-act-omega]

ACT OMEGA PART 1

THE 10/09/16 UPDATE

Alright, considering this update is nothing more than a curtain, I guess I’ll just try to do a bit of a re-cap for everything that’s going on at the end of Homestuck. I’ve already read up to the most recent update (12/05/17), so nothing here will be blind yet. ANYWAYS, I guess I’ll make a cut.

THE END

Ok! So, exactly where we left off at the end of Homestuck. Nothing new to liveblog about, other than the fact that the narration is a filthy liar. Like I said, this will just serve as a re-cap of everybody’s positions.

JOHN:

So, John is currently at the lilypad end-game thingy. Perfectly alive and not injured. He had his reunion with DAD after defeating The Condesce. Not much to say on him otherwise.

ROSE:

Rose is also on the lilypad thingy after defeating The Condesce. Again, not much to re-cap.

DAVE:

Dave is on the lilypad, after pulling off this HUGE SHOCKING 3x DECAPITATION COMBO! And killed off Dirky Dirk in the process. BUUT, Dirk’s alive due to Jane. That was probably a really emotional moment for Dave, which he will most likely just not speak of due to him being a butt who always puts on this cool ironic guy facade. Though I’m curious if it’s gonna have a positive effect on him or a negative one. 

JADE:

Not too much to recap for her! She’s on the lilypad with everybody else after her big battle with Jack Noir and PM. In which she was punched in the face, and didn’t exactly finish it. She has the new earth I believe. OH! And the green sun was destroyed by the other Calliope, who I will now be calling DeadTier!Calliope out of convenience, and I’m curious as to how this is gonna affect Jade’s first guardian powers. Or just her in general! The effects could end up being horrible on her. Or maybe she’ll just lose them first guardian powers. OR MAYBE she’ll just end up keeping them for some strange unexplained reason. We’ll see.

KARKAT:

So the crab boy is on the lilypad after his underwhelming fight with Clover. There’s a lot I’m curious about after that fight. More specifically, how Karkat feels after that fight. Is he going to be disappointed or proud of himself? It’s possible he won’t care, but Karkat usually takes his performance very seriously when it comes to his self-value. He’s also in a pretty familiar situation. At the lilypad after a massive fight, just waiting for the door to be opened. He’s probably gonna let this stress the fuck out of him.

ARADIA:

Aradia seemed to be helping out somewhat with the big Lord English fight! She did say something about not participating in it, but it seems she decided fUCK that, and went off to freeze him in time anyways. Though I’m guessing she went off afterwards, as in the ACT 7 animation, it showed her flying around to watch the Green Sun get destroyed or something like that. Aradia’s kinda emotionally broken at this point, so I hardly doubt she’s gonna have any angst about anything that’s happened. She’ll most likely stay indifferently optimistic as always.

TAVROS:

As far as I know, he’s alive on the battlefield after dealing some massive damage (Or just light pummeling) to the big man Lord English. Not much to say on this matter, other than that’s gotta be a real confidence booster for him. I mean, if he even needs any more confidence boosts at this point.

SOLLUX:

I forget honestly. Oops. He might’ve been in the fight, but I don’t think he was? Oh well, I guess we’ll see if he’s still relevant.

NEPETA:

Forgot again. She was probably somewhere in the midst of the fight. I don’t know if there is a single relevant Nepeta anymore.

[EDIT]OH I FORGOT SHE FUZED WITH DAVESPRITE. ok thats all though. They’re on the battlefield with Lord English too I guess.

KANAYA:

She’s on the good ol’ lilypad after an epic encounter with the condesce. I believe she’s got the matriorb from Roxy at this point, so that’s gotta be really exciting for her. I’d imagine that she is really in a good mood. There’s no more trouble, and the coast is finally clear for bringing back their race.

TEREZI:

I can imagine Terezi being excited about this. I think I remember her having some confidence issues, as if she wasn’t living up to the pre-retcon Terezi. But I think there’s a possibility she’s gotten over that? I’m like 90% sure she remembers that entire timeline at this point due to her time powers. And possibly even merged her memories with them? If that’s the case, I can imagine she’s very glad all this shit is over with. She doesn’t even seem to be in this for the new universe at this point, it’s like all she wants is to be with her friends and not deal with all of these greater threats.

VRISKA:

#1 troll is on the battlefield with Lord English. She used the Juju on him, but it’s result is unknown. I’d say she’s probably looking forward to taking this big hero moment. If she does manage to take him out, her pride meter is gonna SKYROCKET. I’m sure she’d be more than happy than to have her friends regard her as a hero. But I’m sure she’s ALSO happy that the threat is gone as well. But like I said, we still don’t know what the Juju did to Lord English.

EQUIUS:

Again, no real iteration of him that matters. Other than I guess ARquiusprite. God, making a stable list of characters is difficult in Homestuck. Either way, not much to say.

GAMZEE:

In the fridge. That’s all. In this new retconned timeline, it’s hard to say how dangerous he is. So I guess we’ll see? Gamzee’s timeline is one of the harder ones to keep track of.

ERIDAN:

none that matter

FEFERI:

none that matter again. i think.

JANE:

This isn’t a character I’m too familiar with. I’m currently rereading Homestuck, so I should be able to get a better grasp on her character during that. But other than that, I’d say she’ll be happy. She’s on the lilypad, and sees her DAD. That’s all, really. 

ROXY:

The batterbitch is dead, in the most symbolic way possible. With a great ol’ symbolism sword. She’s on the lilypad, probably being super badass or super happy, and possibly still having the hots for John.

DIRK:

lilypad. he died, and got revived by jane. And thats all there is to say on the matter..? Again, dirk is one of those characters i had trouble wrapping my head around on the first read. so ill probably have more thoughts later.

JAKE:

He’s on the lilypad after fighting the felt. Not sure what to say on that. moving on.

MEENAH:

Also on the battlefield. not much to say. shes probably still feeling down about leaving (vriska) behind, but who knows? 

DAVEPETASPRITE^2:

A fairly new character! Hard to say  how they feel in the midst of all this. they make a pretty badass sprite though, with a cool/perky personality that i love. so we’ll see more on them later. They’re on the battlefield though!

JASPROSESPRITE^2:

HMm. I dont remember if I saw them on the lilypad, so im not sure where theyre at right now. Again a fairly new character, who I dont know enough about to predict how they feel.

CALLIOPE:

FUckin adorable as always. SHe’s on the lilypad. I dont know how she’s feeling. I believe she was only supposed to protect herself instead of contributing to the fight, but I dont know how shes gonna feel about that. Having to do nothing but stay safe while all your friends throw themselves into danger, and then being told that you can just TAKE the reward with them cant feel good. we’ll see though.

CALIBORN:

Idfk his timeline confuses me at the moment so moving on

(VRISKA):

I dont know. probably being gay or something with (Terezi). She’s probably still recovering from that betrayal on Meenahs end. But this is. kinda hard to comment about.

(TEREZI):

She’s with vriska, finally having found SOME happiness after the fuckfest that was her doomed timeline. Who knows how long she’ll be ok with JUST Vriska, but I guess we’ll see.

ALRIGHT! I probably missed a ton of characters, but it’s so hard to keep track of them all. That’s all I have to say for now.